Updated :))

its long since i last update my blogger :)) ..

love stay wit he .. i've meet her , she so cute and beautiful ..

she more beautiful than i imagine , her smile , her laugh ..

makes me felt like im in heaven x.x" ..

we had our 1st kiss and is so ........... ( dunno hw to describe )

lol .. ill keep her company and love her ^^ ~

I've made a vow to no one but you ..
I pledge my love to u will be true ..
Forever will always be you ..
its true The blood will wash away ..
but the scar will never fade like i love u ..

Feelings of the Hurt

its just too sad ,
i cant handle this kind of thing ,
what they say are just make me hurt ,
my heart broken into pieces ,
i cant hold my tears , i cant hold it in anymore ..
i let my tears out after 1 yrs 6 months i hold it in ..

what did i do wrong ?
stop saying about me ppl ,
im just a normal human and im not perfect ..
im just like other normal ppl living all around u ..
i never felt hurt like tis , it deeply hurt my feelings ..

bee ..
bii never think want to play ur feelings ,
bii never think want to cpl with bee just to make love ,
bii love bee b'cuz of how bee treat bii , how bee talk with bii at
the phone , bii so in love with bee ..
bii never be playboy and will never be , bii just want bee to love bii ,
bii dun wan aythng more than just bee d heart ..

bee ..
if only bii can let bee read bii d min ,
bee will see everythng wat bii thnk bout bee ,
bii dont care wat ppl wan say bout bee ,
bii just care bee ..

it hurt so much , im deeply hurt ,
its hard to recover , but ill try my best ,
why do ppl awaz tell lies and fake story ,
but what can i do , if god give me this destiny i cant do anythng ..

im nothing special ,
im just me , im not a playboy ,
im not handsome like other guys ,
my heart is just for 1 ppl , my love just for my girl ,
im crying while im doing this post , i cry not becuz of i sad ,
i cry b'cuz i hurt , even the things pass already ,
but i still can forget bout it ..

i feel like i was dying while ago ,
i dun have the courage to live ..
if i cant handle it , ill end my life by my own ..
i fight for my love , i fight for my happiness , i fight for what i trust ,
i fight for my girl , i fight for what i believe ..

But .....
what can i feel now is .... HURT

well its true ,
love is nothing without jealous ,
i do and i admit i have tis jealous feelings towrds ,
but what can i do about it ? i just can sit relax and think it over ,
i trust my girl , she trust me ..

thats why i dont have any secret to hide form her ,
cuz some 1 tell me , if u love someone , u have to tell her anythng ,
even its u biggest secret .. so ,
ill tell her anythng she wanted to know ,
and ill tell her slowly until she understand me ..

sumtimes i feel sad ,
when she wanna go some where she didnt tell me ,
it make me thinks that " am i her bf or sumthing " ..
ill try not to argue with her , cuz i really wanted her ,
so i scared if we both argue , then sumthng will happen ..
so ill just put the blame on me =)) ..

im not like other guys out there ,
they like to argue with they gf , but im not ,
i rather to put the blame on my self even if its not my fault ,
i knw mayb some of u gonna think tis is the stupid thing i ever do ,
but i have to protect my relationship , i have to protect my gir , right ?
so for wat argue when in the end both will hurt ?

Sumtimes i feel Insane ..
the way she treat me , they wan she talk with me ,
its all so sweet and happy , she like an angel came down to the
earth from sky just for me , when she say she sick , ill worry alot ,
i pretend to sleep just to make that she not worry about me ,
so when she ask me " u gt enuff rest ? " ill say " enuff " ..
even if i dont sleep at all ..

i pray all night for her ,
wish she will get better soon ,
wish she have a wonderful day tomorrow ,
so she wont sad , hurt or angry ..




so after many thinking and thoughts ,
ill try my best to be loving boyfriend to her ,
i wanted to make her like she never fall in love before ,
like she never been loved like this , sumtime i see a couple holding hands
together it makes me thing , i wish that they are us , holding hands and walk aside the beach ,
then laugh together .. its so many thing to tell , about me , her and us ...

Bee ,

dont care ur horoscope lo =)) ..
bee got bii leh ,
no need to worry anything liao ,
tat opposite things oso dun care ,
cuz bii promise liao with bee ,
love bee awaz and 4evr ..

Bee ,
bee got bii d heart ,
nothing more important than bee ,
so if bee got sumthng ,
just tell bii ya ,
bii love bee so much ,
today hope bee can come with bee go see concert leh ,
but nvm , someday bii will bring bee go =)) ..

its 1 week since we be together ..
its seems that world only belongs to us ..
well , its true i miss her right now ..
it feels like sumthng not right when she not around ..
seriously im tired , sleepy and sick ..
but i dun wan let she know cuz i dun wan she worry bout me ..
the best thing bout her is when she smile , it makes me really calm ,
when v talk at the phone , my heartbeat beats faster ..
maybe half of u will think that im crazy , but this is much better ..
this is Feelings , This is Love ..

Let ppl say she not pretty ,
Let ppl say she not cute ,
Let ppl say everythng they wan about her ,
but , for me she is Pretty than diamond ,
she is Cute than Domo and the most important thin .
she know how to love , care and make me happy ..
this what matters alot ..

" Girl are like stars... there are a million of them but there ,
but only she can make my dreams come true "

- My Baby -
No ppl can Disturb her , No ppl can take her from me , she is my girl , and im her boy ..

Our Skype Day :))
- Sheb ❤ Yawen -

- Why so serious leh @@ -

- Bee i Love when u smile like this xDD -

Bee Laugh =)) !

Its just us , no other ..
v share our life , laugh and love
together forever ..

Beeee ! thx for making bii laugh ,
I Love Eu so much
- Candy Love -

our 6th Days ..

without v noticed ,
our feelings toward each other start to grow and grow ,
its uncomfortable when she didnt text or call me ,
it feels like im dying slowly , even if i fall asleep ,
i will awake every 15 minutes too see my phone ,
and thinking that what she do or where is she ,
when she told me that she sick , im started to worry ,
honestly im sad cuz i cant do anythng when she say
she was sick , but my baby always comfort me not to worry ,
so i tell my self , this girls is my perfect soul mate , she is my love life ,
even she like to bully me , but i still love it , ill like to see her smile ,
i like to do funny thngs just to make she laugh , she is my boss in my life ,
and it makes me happy :))

Bee .. 1 thing that u already know is " I Love You "
but 1 thing u dont know is that " I Love You Forever " xD

Bee ...
I wanna touch ur heart ,
baby , gently , I wanna touch ur heart,
even if painful days are awaiting us ,
I will never lose u ..

in the middle of a changing world ,
v hold hands and move along ,
and walk together ,
this is a small promise ..

without changing ,
we will have the same dream ,
the dream that only v knows ,
a dream of u and i ..

Bee

feel me with u, I wanna be with u.
baby, the more I wanna be with u,
meeting u for the first time and I knew,
how deep this strong feeling is ..

kill me with those simple words
u know, always with those simple words,
it's ok not to pretend so forcefully,
v both understand,
v can still carry on going even if our eyes are closed,

u are the wind ,
that bring bring colours,
that shine on me whenever I go.

if I can protect u,
I will give u evrythng,
the sound doesnt ring,
but echoes in the heart,
is always loving u ...

Morning peeps ...

No People at home and im so so damn sleepy ,
but my stomach starting to singing ,
hmmm .. what's on breakfast ?
i dunno .. well lets go see and cook ..
hahaha ~

Bee ~

Bee ,

its almost morning ,
and i cant stop thinking bout u my sweetheart ..
maybe i think too much , but i like it ..

i like how my feelings , even im worried bout u ..

its like i fly to heaven for a short time now ..

i wish u were beside me right now ,
so we can watch the star together ,

and let me caress ur forehead ,
then ill stay awake all night just to see u fall asleep ,

and watch over untill the sunrise ,

so when u awake ,

ill kiss u and say ,

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BEE ~

28 - May - 2011 12:09 am ..

The special day for me and her ..

after years of waiting at last i got her in my arm ..

too say honest , when she smile to me ,

my world seem to be shake ..

when she talk to me thru the phone i just cant stop smiling ..

she fill my heart with love , she fill my life with joyful ..

she everything i ever wanted ..

Bee ~ ur really stole heart

♥

so every morning when i awake ,

we will talk thru the phone before she off to school ,

i want her to be the first ppl voice ill listen to ,

so when i go to get ready ill remember back what we talk about ,

and i keep on smiling , this is much beautiful than heaven ..

now , she is my world ..

she's everything that i care ,

i made my love vow to her ,

ill care her , protect her and love her for my life ..

Im really happy to be with her ,

i too happy , she not like other girls ..

she is unique , she beautiful , she know how to treat me ,

for me she perfect , My Perfect Soulmate ..

To my bee ..
bee thanks for loving bii ..

bii love u so much only god knows ..

sarangheyo CNV ~ ♥

Without words :]

I should have done that
I should have ignored it
Like something I couldn’t see
I shouldn’t look at you at all

I should have run away
I should have acted like I didn’t hear it
Like something I couldn’t hear
I shouldn’t have listened to love at all

Without a word, you let me know love
Without a word, you give me love
You made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love tossed me away

What should I say next?
My closed lips were surprised on their own
Coming without any words
Why does it hurt so much?

Why does it hurt continuously?
Except for the fact that I can’t see you anymore
And that you are not here anymore
Otherwise, it’s the same as before

Without a word, you let me know love
Without a word, you give me love
You made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this

Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love tossed me away
What should I say next?
My closed lips were surprised on their own

Without a word, tears fall
Without a word, my heart breaks down
Without a word, I waited for love
Without a word, love hurts me

I zone out
I become a fool because I cry looking at the sky
Without a word, fire well finds me
Without a word, the end comes to me

I think my heart was surprise to send you away without any preparations
It came without a word
Without a word, it comes and leaves
Like the fever before, maybe all I need to do is hurt for a while